A LITTLE ABOUT ME
I am a midwestern girl through and through, although I do spend a lot of time dreaming about living on an ocean beach somewhere. Until then, exploring Lake Michigan with my family is one of my favorite pastimes. I went to college and met my cute hubby in sunny Arizona - this is where the dream of running my own photography business began. I taught elementary school for a while but once I had my own babies, I realized that my heart was truly at home with them. They are definitely my why. Being able to be home with them during the day, nurture their love for learning through homeschool and have the freedom to adventure as we please are goals husband and I had always envisioned for our family. This dream was pushed into motion when my oldest was diagnosed with cancer as a baby. Through many answered prayers, we are beyond thankful to be able to say that she made full recovery. Because of this experience, I knew it was time. Time to start cherishing the time I have with my family more deeply because every day we have together is a blessing. Photographing my family was a really important tool for me in learning how to do this well. It was also time to take a leap of faith, leave teaching to be home with my babies and dive into my photography business. So, here I am today, just a mama who is thankful to be saved by grace, wife to an amazing guy, homeschooling our four littles and photographing sweet moments for my family and hopefully for your family as well.
As a photographer, it is in my nature to look for the perfect light. But like many other things in life, light is not always perfect. It changes with the seasons, the weather, and even the time of day. Because of this, I have had to train myself to look at light differently, to think about light differently. I have found that there is always light and I have been in awe of the beauty that I have been able to find at the most unexpected times and in the most unlikely of places, just by changing my way of thinking. Isn't this often how motherhood can be?
Being a mom of toddlers, my days can fluctuate greatly depending on the moods of my four littles or even my own mood. Some days we are killing it and some days my house is a mess, my baby was up 5 times, I haven't slept, I haven't showered, and I may have even relied on a bowl of peas as my food source for the day. My inner dialog often consists of phrases like, "when was the last time I brushed my teeth?" or "How long can I get away with wearing this shirt during the day...and to bed - a week? I'm totally pulling it off! " As moms, it is easy to get discouraged, some days we are going to feel like total failures, be overwhelmed, or exhausted. It's on those days, much like on the short gloomy days of our midwestern winters, we need to search for the light. Look for the small glimpse of light that reminds us we are doing great things.
Watch your baby smile as you enter the room. Let those little voices saying, "Mommy, I love you!" ring in your ears as you face the challenges of the day. Notice when your child makes the right choice when nobody is looking. See them when they are getting along and showing kindness. Praise them when they persevere. Look for the good. Look for the love. Look for the light in your day to day. Cherish these small moments, the moments of light, because our babies won't be little forever and these moments are what make all the challenges worth it.
It sounds so cliche to say this but in motherhood, the days are long but the years are short, and I want nothing more than to preserve these precious moments in time for you and your sweet babies. I wrote this during a time when we had just battled cancer with our oldest daughter and I was in the thick of newborn life with our son. Life was so good but my mama heart was still recovering from the challenges we had faced and man, was I tired. These are words that I never want to forget, though, because they got me through a really hard time and even more so, deepened my love for photography and cherishing the moments we have with our littles. When I photograph my own kids and my client's as well, I'm not looking for a forced smile. What I love to create though my sessions are more of the moments in-between. The moments where you lean in kiss your little one's head or the moment where your older daughter leans into you while you tell her a story that she had long forgotten or the moment when you are walking with your son and he reaches up to hold your hand or the laughter brought about by a tickle fight. These are closest to real life, these are the moments that are worth preserving.